Hope you're all well!
Many of you have asked, what my job is all about. I am actually working for a Canadian clothing company, that I worked for in the 1990's! It was all serendipity. I didn't know this store was looking for help, but for some reason, I looked it up online and went for it. I had an hour interview and felt right at home. So basically, I am selling and merchandising, etc.
I have been very honest with all of you, about the healing that I have went through for many years. For some reason, this year, as you know, I kept second guessing my art. I kept thinking too much about being an "Artist". Then I would start thinking about the future and other things would get into my head. I was actually having panic attacks. Then, I finally surrendered.
I surrendered to the unknown! Remember, I made that painting, "fall in love with the unknown". I have started to live in the moment! After all, all we are is this moment. I stopped resisting to my fears and started to love them. Anything that came in my head, I said, and I love that.
When I was meditating, I kept saying, what do I need, right now and "job", kept coming to my soul. At first, I did resist. And, then I remembered something I read once, "your intuition may not always give you the most popular options or answers you yearn for, but it will always guide you beyond all known reference points, where the full potential of who you're meant to be, can come to life in all your perfection, glory and splendour."
This job to me is more than just extra money, or getting out of the house. It's hard to explain. I said to someone about courage and I totally lost them. They didn't understand. I'm a people person, but I didn't realize how "stag-net", I had became. I thought I was going to take a heart attack, before the interview! LOL! This job has opened me up and has let me be me. Like I said, it's hard to explain.
Also, now, I feel I can be more me with my art. Which I have got back to. I just had to start scheduling my time more. I feel more of a free flow. I'm just letting whatever is inside of me out. Now some of you might not like what you see and that is fine! I take no offence to that! Art is an expression of one's self and I just hope, I can keep connecting with you, through it!
So here's to not knowing, and living every moment!
For some reason, when I was going through all this, I remembered a girl I once new. A gentleman wanted to go out with her, but she refused, because he was a potato farmer. I thought that was so sad, and I still do. We all get so "up" about "titles". Why can't we all just "be" and hopefully, through that being, Be Happy.
Sorry, I'm all over the place in this post, but hopefully it's all making sense!
Through my "clearing" things out of the house, especially my items, I feel so much lighter. If it feels heavy to you, why keep it?
I know I can't get into everything I've been through, but I can say, I am so ready! No regret! No looking back! No feeling guilty!
No one can live your life and you can't live anyone else's life!
Now for my larger painting. I actually finished it! Happy Dance! But, I couldn't spray it today, because it was cold and raining. So crossing my fingers, the next sunny day, I will be able to.
This is where I left you.
And, here are some progress pictures.
And, I started another painting!
Remember, I went on a retreat this past May? Well, I'm going on another on this weekend in Toronto. This time I'm taking my camera! I will be off line Friday October 26th-Sunday October 28th.
Big Hugs 😃
( Just to let you know, blogger is still being a bugger to me! And, Canada Post is on rotating strikes!)