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Thursday, December 31, 2015

Hi Everyone! We have snow! Didn't have it for Christmas, but we finally got it! I love when the earth sleeps. One of my favourite things to do, is to snow shovel at night. Nothing but pure silence, with the snow gently coming down and the sky is crystal clear, with all the stars shining bright!

Did you see the full moon over the holidays? She was amazing! WOW!

I can't believe it will be 2016 soon! Well, I have to tell you, 2015, was, I think one of the best years of my life. I know some of you might be thinking, Stacy, are you crazy! LOL! Everything for me has came full circle. It was like a light bulb went off in my head and I said, yes, I finally get it!
(warning long post, grab a drink and some snacks) 

For me, when I have been in relationships, there was always one of two things, either I felt I had to change or there was always major obstacles in the way, that the relationship, could never happen. This was a constant, through my entire life! 

I didn't realize, I've never loved myself. I mean, truly love myself! 

Feeling I had to change in a relationship, meant, I didn't love myself and never thought I was good enough. Having obstacles, for me meant, that I felt, I never deserved love, because again, I never truly loved myself, and I couldn't truly love someone else, because I didn't love myself first.

Well, guess what, I LOVE ME! I tell myself that through out the day and I also give myself a hug everyday too! I mean I truly love me! From my bald spot on my head, to my scars on my left arm! 
And, when the right person is meant to come into my life, he will and I know things will be totally different! No manipulation, no conditions. I guess I never realized how much I "pined" to have someone to love me. But, that wasn't what was going to complete me. Loving myself, is what has completed me! For sure, we all want someone to be by our side, but if that someone, suddenly stopped loving me, I would be back where I started, in the space where love felt lost. When you truly love yourself, you are never alone! I was told one of the hardest things in life to do, is to truly love yourself! So true! 

But, I discovered it wasn't just about loving myself. I had lost who I was! I really looked back and I think it was around 2011 on. Sure, I still smiled and painted and went on with life, but I wasn't me. I let what other people said about me, really crush me on the inside. Like if someone said, you laugh too loud. I took it as a personal hit and I truly stopped laughing. I think this year, is when my laugh came back! Through my entire life, I have been known for my laugh! Well, it's back and it's not leaving again! Now, if someone says anything cruel to me, I let them and inside I am telling myself, Stacy, I love you and seriously, I am smiling! I am not saying I'm happy, I am saying, I choose to be happy! There is a difference! 

People can say what they want. This is me. If you don't like me, that is fine! I'm coming out baby and I feel good! LOL! 

But, it goes the same way with me, towards other people. I have always been a positive person, telling people to believe. Well, now, I have stopped doing that. All, I can do, is to keep sending the people that are close in my life, love and positive energy. I can't change them. They are who they are. I accept them for who they are. I love them for who they are. 

The only thing that is sad, is that I have tried to explain to the people that are closest to me, what has happened, they just don't get it. They say, Stacy, if that is what you believe, then that is good. I don't understand why they don't get it, but they don't. And, you know how I was saying, I see the people who are closest to me for who they are. I accept them for who they are. I love them for who they are. Well, sad to say again, these people who have been around me my entire life, not only don't understand what I have been through, but they really don't know the true me. Sometimes I hear them say things about me and I think, that's not me! LOL! I pray one day, they really get to know the true me! The one good thing, is that I feel the energy has changed. Maybe it's because I am standing taller now!

So, for 2016, I am going to be the best me I can be! Yes, I have been told, I am too sweet, or my laugh is too loud, or I am hyper, or I believe too much, my head is in the stars, but I love me and this is me! It feels good to be back!

I am sending out positive energy to all of you. I am sending you love, peace, happiness and good health! Remember, love yourself! And, whatever you want to do in life, do it! It might not turn out the way you wanted it to, but it might turn out better than you expected! And, try to do everything with love and positive energy! Even doing the dishes! It makes the day go by better! Happy New Year!!!!!!!!!!!

Big Hugs and Much love!

Thanks for sticking by this Crow Gal!

Oh, I have to tell you, this is the first time in my life, that I am going be keeping some of the paintings I have created! I just can't part with them, because for the first time, I have seen me in them and, I really love them! 

Tuesday, December 22, 2015

Merry Christmas!
It's still green here and raining! From reading your comments, a lot of us are in the same boat! I am grateful for everything, but I have to admit, having a green Christmas, just doesn't feel the same! My poor birds aren't going to get their special Christmas treat, with my homemade suet balls. Hopefully we get some snow in 2016! LOL!

Did you know about the full moon on December 25th?
Isn't that exciting? Look at the sky late Christmas eve or very early in the morning Christmas day!

I thought I would share a picture of me and Santa Claus.
It was from a few years back! LOL!
I wish everyone the best this holiday season! Whatever you are celebrating!!
Big Hugs!!!! 

Wednesday, December 16, 2015

Hey My Friends!
Well, we still have no snow! I think it's going to be a green Christmas! I started to think, what happens if we get no snow at all for winter? That would be terrible! I remember, when I was little and the snow would be over the fences! And, on Halloween, we would be wearing our costumes over our snow suites. The good old days! LOL!
Yes, that's me!

I've been making some homemade suet balls, to give to my birds for a treat this Christmas season.
They're all ready in the freezer. I layer between suet and sunflower seeds and peanuts and then freeze them in plastic containers. When it's time, I cut the outside layer off. But, I can't give it to my birds, until it gets below 0! They might be in the freezer for awhile! LOL!

I did finish one painting, "You Are Beautiful". I didn't realize what I was painting, until I finished it. I saw a bride, seeing her groom for the first time. His eyes are glowing because of her beauty.
I want to thank you so much for all your kind comments you always give me on my art! You keep this crow girl going! 
I hope whatever you are celebrating this season, that you are filled with much love!!!
Big Hugs!

Saturday, December 5, 2015


Hey Everyone, Happy Spring/ Summer! The sun is shinning. The grass is growing. The birds are eating.
Wait a minute, it's December, isn't it? LOL! We have had mild weather before, but sorry, I think this is ridiculous! People are putting down sod! Actually, I was going to buy more grass seed, because it grew and the stores, have put the prices back up! They should be on clearance. Usually get them for about $5.00 a bag. Now back up to $18.00! Well, I guess I can't blame them. No one is buying snow blowers! LOL!

I have been painting lots! Grab a drink! Much to show you!
"Big Hugs" 6" x 6" canvas
"Whispers" 4" x 4" canvas
"My Spirit" 5" x 5" canvas
"Strength" (Warrior Crow Goddess) 6" x 8" canvas
"Blessings" (Winter Fairy Baby Crow) 6" x 8" canvas
"Grateful" (Crow Goddess) 6" x 8" canvas
Big Hugs