*My Crows* *My Art* *My Way*

Wednesday, June 13, 2018

Hi Everyone!
Hope you're all well!

This was one of those posts again, where I was like, should I write it or not. But, I did. I have always tried to be real on here and I'm not going to stop. If I can help anyone when I write these posts, that makes me smile!

A couple of things happened over the past two weeks, that almost put me back into my old story, but I didn't do it! As you know, the first thing I did for my 90 day challenge, was cut my hair all off. Done with hiding! When I did this, someone close to me, stated, you look so ugly and repeated this statement several times and asked, why did I cut my hair like that.

"Before", I would have cried, had a confrontation and felt terrible inside. But, this time, I just sat quietly and told myself how much I loved me. And, that I am so proud of me. I actually thanked the person (inside), for showing me how much of an amazing person I am, and hope one day, they will feel the same about themselves.

It's hard, especially when you might have wanted approval from someone, but the only approval you need is from you! We all go through so many things in our lives. I truly believe, when you "see you", when you "be you", when you "love you", it helps! You've got your back. There is no shaming yourself, only loving!

I would like to share with you my haircut! No makeup, the greys are showing and everything else! LOL! The true me!
I tell you my story, not to get sympathy, but to say, Honour You! You Are Amazing!

Not to long ago, (2015), when I was at my lowest and didn't realize how much I didn't love me and also didn't realize how much I had to heal inside, I was getting ready to go to Iraq! Yes, I was! (I won't go into the details) I just wanted to run! I wanted to escape! I grew my hair almost down to my bum, died it dark and got my passport. Fortunately, none of that happened, because of some special friends.

That is the one thing I have to stress, please, when you are feeling low, and I mean low, never stop talking and cry! Let it out!! I hate to say it, no matter how many people are there for you, it has to be you do it! But, know you can!!

I would like to share with you, my passport picture. I'm so happy, I didn't give up on me!

As I type this, I'm crying! I never thought I would share this part of my life, but I felt I needed to! We all deal with so much stuff and the world seems sometimes, like it's going crazy.

Please, let yourself be you! Be you for everything! Love You! Don't apologize for being you, no matter how weird you think you are. Honour who you are! Some people might think you're nuts and might not want to be around you anymore and it might hurt. But, you're important!!! I dare you, to be you! Never dull your light for anyone!!!

I finished a little painting. It's 4" x 6", on paper.
"Be You For Everything"

I'll leave you with pictures of my flowering bush, in the front of our home.
And, here are the hostas. They haven't flowered yet. 

Thank you for letting me share this post and thank you for reading it! I'm grateful for all of you!
Big Hugs 😃

Monday, June 4, 2018

Hi Everyone!
Hope you're all well!
The temperatures have cooled down here. It's like fall! So nice! But, I know by next week, the heat will be on again!

My friends are back. I have counted 3 so far.
The wild flowers that I showed before, have started to bloom! I have tones this year. I love them. They just keep spreading.
I have tones of these purple flowers. Not sure the name of them.
Thanks to all of you, that wrote to me about blogger. I have found some of your blogs are not showing up for me, when you make a new post. Just know, I will be around!!

I have really thought about putting a collection of my paintings together, in a little book. With their names and some positive affirmations. I know I could self publish, but then I was thinking of doing something myself. What I would like to know from all of you. Would you mind an "open" side? I don't know how to say it. But, like these images.
I would be going to a professional printer to get it done.  Don't be shy, I would really like your feed back.

I was thinking about cards or postcards again too.

I did manage to get one painting finished.
Here are some progress pictures.
Finished painting,
"Play Time" (5" x 5" wood)

By the way, Happy June!
I have decided to do a 90 day challenge! Basically, you do one thing, that your heart is calling out for you to do. Stepping out of your old story. So many things have changed in my soul and I'm excited to do this. After 90 days, I will let you know what happened!
If any of you want to  join in, please do!

I have to tell you, I've already done one thing! I chopped my hair all off! Yes I did. You wouldn't believe the looks I've been getting! LOL! As you all know, my hair is very fine. I was starting to dye it again and do the comb over. After I did the last painting, about Don't Hide Your Imperfections, Celebrate Them! I smartened up and did what my heart told me to do. I've wanted to do this for such a long time! Not saying I will keep it this short, but it's so freeing! It's good not to hide!!!!

Talk Soon!
Big Hugs 😀

Tuesday, May 29, 2018

Hi Everyone!
Hope you're all well!

I've been getting lots of "messages" from blogger. One about the privacy thing and now about comments? I just want everything to stay the same! If any of you know about the comments, can you let me know? It said something about "open ID" comments are no more?

About our privacy, I think we have to write our own message?
I think it's all confusing!

On a "brighter" note. I want to share why, I keep the "wild flowers" growing in our yard!
I have my own "natural" deweeder! Is that a word? LOL
If you leave things alone, nature will take care of it's self 😃
Do you remember this?
"Finished" painting- (8" x 16" wood)
"Don't Hide Your Imperfections"
"Find Beauty In The Innocence Of Them"
Many of you have been commenting about my backgrounds, as in, just leaving the paintings, without my crows. I did that once and it wasn't me. Personally, I love adding layer, upon layer of paint. I'm telling a story, even if you can't see what's back there. I know it's there.

I did finish one more painting.
"Bring The Real You To The World" (5" x 5" wood)
Big Hugs 😃